Monday, 25 January 2016

Confidence is SEXY

They say "confidence is sexy". I never really understood it until recently. 

Due to much of my ups and downs at this period of my life. I've really learnt to leave the negative things to deal with themselves. Simpler way, I simply do not care about a lot of things now. 

I have more things to worry about than how I look. 

I've said this a million times, don't be afraid to wear that weird piece of clothes that you never saw anyone wear in the public. Really. You'll just stand out from the crowd (hopefully not in a weird way). 

"It is easier because you are pretty" lol. Seriously guys? I doubt I am a good looking person but I do take a lot of pride in how I dress up and look. Not for anyone else but myself. Remember, it is for YOURSELF. 

Girls get insecure. Guys too you have to remember that. 

At some point in my life, I was surrounded by people that made me lose way too much confidence. I was very pressurized and it lead me to look very "shag" all the time. I was constantly tired, trying to fit in to a circular hole when I am obviously a triangle to begin with.

I have a habit of writing a diary. 

I used to just write about all the upsetting things in my life, why? Because that is all I could remember. Being sad, lonely and afraid. But now, I am actually able to write happy things. 

When I turn to the mirror and ask myself, is this worth it? Honestly, sometimes I still get mini relapses of lets-just-live-like-this and nothing-is-going-to-change mindset. 

It takes time. 

Maybe you are wounded.
Maybe you are already scarred.
Maybe you are on the verge of getting cut.

There is always another way out and no matter how much you think that the situation will not improve. You just got to believe. Again, why? 

Because sadness starts with you. And happiness ALSO starts with you. So why not embrace the situation with a lighter heart? 

Easier said than done. 

Well, I am a living example so that leaves you no excuse. 

This is life. You ought to face things that you do not wish to, or didn't hope for. 

Whether you failed a test or an exam. Whether your heart got broken by someone. Whether your family is very unsupportive. Whether whether whether everything. 

Someday or somewhat you will see the light out of the darkness. It is all in your head. 

The wolf story remember? There is two wolves inside of us and one represents resentment and sadness, while the other represents positivity and love. How will they grow? It depends which one you feed. 

Much to my dismay. More and more young girls (I am young too, just sayin' :p) are harming themselves because they couldn't find a way out. At least they thought they would never. It is not necessarily true. It is a phase everyone needs to go through. Your parents probably did. Your older siblings probably did. You just have to get out of it and suck up. You are more than worthy. 

Build your confidence today. 

Wear those heels, wear that dark MAC lipstick you got, eat as much as you want. At the end of the day, you are really going to feel contented and naturally your self-esteem with raise. 

Walk that street like it's your runway. 

Confidence is sexy because that is something within. Confidence is sexy because it allows you to be YOU. Confidence is sexy because it shows that you are not afraid of your flaws. 

When you are confident. You learn to appreciate other people's strength. You tend to compliment people genuinely. You really will see the world in a different light. 

There is just so many reasons. 

Work it boys and girls. 

I post every Monday. Do check back for more of me.

Till then. Good luck. 

Monday, 18 January 2016

Japan Trip 2015

“Are you still alive Celine?”
Yes.
“Why aren’t you uploading blogs?”
I have been very uninspired and lazy.

I hope I just answered your question.

Many things happened since I was being grateful for the year ends.
There are quite a few things I want to update you guys about and is planning to blog about in this month.

Contents:
JAPAN TRIP 2015


So, many of you probably already know that I went to Japan last year and I did not blog about it. The thing is, there really isn’t anything much for me to blog about? It has just been family time and personal time and lots of healings. Japan is a true beauty, I finally found somewhere that is prettier than I am.

The first place we went was Kobe, Japan. It wasn’t a city area, but hell, it is god damn life goals. Kobe is my favourite place out of every single place I went during this trip.
It is not exactly rural, but not city. The streets were very quiet even if it is at it's peak traffic, or even if there is so many people on the streets. Buildings are not all high up, it is small and low. Big roads.
The weather was fairly cold and it was literally my perfect heaven.





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The next place is HONESTLY, I cannot remember but I am just going to go through the pictures and just say what happened there.




This is one of the bridges. The first place we went. That shadow there is my brother and I. This place was so cold that you will want to literally cry esp when the wind blows. I do enjoy every second there, I am smitten with the view and I'd love to jump into the water. (only in summer plz guys)

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A bunch of pictures of trees are coming, it is amazing, I literally fell in love with every single brunch. I wrote my 4 season: winter blog post while staring at leafless trees. If you have not read it, you should. 












So beautiful... right?


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So, after that we went to try the Japan trains? I only remember that we took it all the way to Tokyo. The train rides were fairly the same just that faster and SUPER quiet. I know my face is being a salvage with all my skin disorders idk. The weather was extremely dry.

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This is a tea plantation if it is not obvious enough. I was expecting the air to be thinner and colder when we are up here, since we are up a mountain, but nope, the air was fwresh and good. Smells like green tea everywhere I move around. The meal was also green tea themed, honestly it didn't taste amazing to me but it was a good try. 

I would live in that glass house there for life. Although I really prefer to sleep in darkness but imagine waking up to green tea leaves and mountains everyday, it is a city girl's dream. Only in dreams apparently.


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I kind of regretted not taking more photos of the temple but it was a nice place. SO many cats though, super cute meowing over their territory. Did I ever mention that, once when we were at the supermarket, we saw two cats about to kill each other? jeez, so fierce though, their fur was standing. but still cute. 

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no need me to explain, Fuji mountain was breath taking. It looked so cold up there isnt it. If you look closely to the left of this picture, you can spot the suicide forest that everyone has been talking about. Quite daunting but truth is that I am pretty intrigued by how souls and haunted spirits wonder around. 

"not all who wanders are lost" isn't it?

okay, that is enough for my Japan trip. Hope you guys enjoyed this post.

My posting schedule will be every Monday ( other than spontaneous post which there will be alot )

Do check back next Monday !

CEL


Sunday, 3 January 2016

2016 resolutions

I know I am pretty late at this but why not do it now?

“Better be late than never” someone said.
This year, 2016, I decided to make my resolutions a fair play, and are things I know I can achieve with determination and hard work. Well, at least I don’t expect my grades to be a hundred out of a hundred anymore. Let’s just jump right into it.



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1.     Make my bed every day.

This is my really bad habit, I will not even touch my bed after I wake up. Blankets on the floor? Pillows across the room floor? “I can take them when I sleep again tonight anyways” has always been my mantra so, I decided to change that this year. Hopefully.


2.     Have a routine and wake up early.

I am not much of a routine person, but I thought, since this year I would be either ending up in a Polytechnic (either private or local), I will need more self-discipline for homework and assignments. I have a really long term break before school starts again, my body clock is extremely screwed. I would wake up at timings like 1pm or even later every single day.


3.     Learn, Explore, Create Art.

What do you mean by learning art Celine, you may ask. It is just my idea of seeing everything in the form of art, and just by that I would create my own pieces of art. I want myself to stay immersed in many different types of Arts and hopefully learn every movement of grace of it.


4.     Be happier than I was every single day.

I guess this is really self-explanatory, cancel the negativity and accept the positivity.


5.     Stay Punctual.

I would say this is one of my strong points. I really make a point to always be on time if there is a time placed. I take due dates very seriously if I am working, that is the reason why I would be stressful all the time because I would be so anxious to finish up all my stuff within a period of timing. Honestly, many cannot do this, so I am pretty fine with saying that, well I am good at this.


6.     Do as many things I can during this year.

I am still a teenager, still very fresh with everything I have and more experience to have. I would want to wake up every day to feel that, I am capable of doing what I should do and what I want to do and what I want to achieve.


That is it for my resolution.

2015 has been a tough year for me. I always have people asking me “how do you stay so positive?” “How are you not suicidal yet?” “I would have killed myself.” The thing is, I am sad about things but yknow, happiness overtook sometimes because only at times like this I know who will stay. Even when things are even harder now, some chose to help my silently, some stayed by my side. Knowing that I really would love to have something to lean on.
Things that hurts my soul only make me more independent and harder to defeat. I am molding to become someone, someone so strong. I always believe everyone is a sparkle, you choose to make yourself sparkle more or not, you choose to dim your sparkle, or even put out the fire.
I will be me in 2016, still will be, and always am.


Bye 2015, thank you for all the stupid things you have given me.






best.